Far From Neutral Notions - Philippine politics, culture and stuff

Back again in Manila, with mixed feelings. I left Capiz, home, to pursue a dream, but I always saw myself as a Capiznon. When I came home, however, I became that which I most did not want to be: a tourist in my own land.

I was a stranger, outside looking in, at the one place I thought I’d never feel out of place. I’d find myself wishing for a 7-11 or a Mini Stop, talking about how much fun I’m having in Manila and of all the wonderful friends I’ve made, and loved. Yes, Jean, you. I talked about how wonderful you are and how everything’s hunky dory.

Which is, of course, a load of crap.

Ever had that balikbayan relative who was all high and mighty after years living in the States? Well, I came pretty close. I didn’t complain about anything, and I was truly glad to be home, but I damn well did miss Manila, smog and all.

And the funny thing is, now I’ll be spending the next year or so yearning for home. Because now that I’m back, I’m yet again face to face with reality, and she’s nowhere near perfect. Then again, nothing is. But we love them anyway.

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